I've been thinking and pondering, deepeningg my mind, going profoundly into my self, and I wonder. I wonder why I wonder and why I don't when I stop. Ponder on the things of the present past and future, ponder on the things that I know not of. Then I ask why I ask and why you give me an answer, why do I want an answer when it only leads to more questions to ponder, and ideas to wonder if. If they are true, if my quizical thinking, endures the every burden of greatness or if it is but a ripple in the mindless valley of study and research, examination and conclusion, expermination and results. So I think, and I think that dispite it all I am with in the grasp of happiness, or the happiness is with my grasp, either way I am happy. Though the thing I want I can not have and those I have I dont neccasarily want but I have them and they mock me. So with the ever so present feeling of domination hanging over me, not that am dominate but dominated, I am overcome by an all to dormant presence. Retaliation. Not that I am not rebelious but in the sense of retaliation of feeling. Overcomeing and conquering my self so that if my wishes are not obtained I am equally pleased and yet now UNdomintable because I know and I believe that the result is what it is regardless of if it seems resonable because you cannot change facts and I believe that my goal being reached is a fact. And so in my life and through the love of God I am victorious through him.